if your emotional elephants never ever forgets,
what do you want to do
with the initial dynamic elements of remembering?
do you want to perceive them as judgments, self imposed?
do you want to be currently at affect
of these as historical outcomes?
do you want to set off alarms as in recoil,
hyper-vigilance, apprehensions running wild,
surveillance of the keenness order,
re-visitation as captive to the past version
without recourse of any kind?
is this then to be a re-stimulation,
bordering on the same affect as in the first version’s account?
what self of you now has a keenness discovered
and a present self awareness that can profit
from new perspectives as to what was valuable
as in learning now?
and what was this disaster, as in self-judgment delivered?
and where from within, does insistence still want this
to be unchanged and still so?
that the emotionally charged account is richly dynamic
gives it a special quality of potential worth.
but an inability to leave the judgment
or conclusive positions truly invalidates the effort
of any process towards self-discovery in a deeper way,
for the value of growth and transformation.
there is no burden to remembering
but there is a stockade of self-verdicts if protection
or apprehension are the internal conscious demand.
who you now have within your self-awareness
to witness this process from the beginning,
all the way to being full-blown,
will either bless you with new insights and transition
or curse you with reactivation of private fears
that lucidly live within you
but hardly ever otherwise surface to be dealt with.
that it is dynamic to recall and to thoroughly remember
has true value in becoming a vaster being of consciousness
on the inside but not without a resolute sense of self
in this transition and a capacity to see oneself in a deeper light than reality generally has as its broadcast.
We all have had powerful experiences that without recall
have limited benefit towards growth and yet
we have the baggage of carrying it with us almost unknown until the re-stimulation awakens it all, in the first person, draped in conclusions
as the view and judgments and the outcome.
it is richly rewarding to revisit
with the deeper sense of self as discovery,
not so much to change the original outcome,
but to truly benefit from sourcing yourself
in a deeper way this time, this way through it,
so that the compression and the load are diminished
and the sense of self has more carriage and light
having come through it,
more lifted into the now.
Go find the list of the heavies and prepare yourself
to investigate in such a way that you bring who you are,
as of now, to thoroughly go through that stimulus
as situational and harvest a deeper understanding of self
and how self functioned then as opposed to how,
you of now, would have handled that situation of then.
You allow yourself to have a greater capacity to view
and experience yourself and to use those dynamics
to become more clear and conscious with who you are as of now and what you are more deeply about
within the self-privacy of whatever it is that you do.
Your emotional elephant is essentially design to give you
a wisdom to see clearly and thoroughly as a self
that grows from your own process
and then shares from a deeper place of clarity
and self love going forward . . .