the emotional elephant in the room 8/2/16

if your emotional elephants never ever forgets,

what do you want to do

with the initial dynamic elements of remembering?

do you want to perceive them as judgments, self imposed?

do you want to be currently at affect 

of these as historical outcomes?

do you want to set off alarms as in recoil,

hyper-vigilance, apprehensions running wild, 

surveillance of the keenness order, 

re-visitation as captive to the past version 

without recourse of any kind?

is this then to be a re-stimulation, 

bordering on the same affect as in the first version’s account?

what self of you now has a keenness discovered 

and a present self awareness that can profit 

from new perspectives as to what was valuable 

as in learning now? 

and what was this disaster, as in self-judgment delivered? 

and where from within, does insistence still want this 

to be unchanged and still so?

that the emotionally charged account is richly dynamic 

gives it a special quality of potential worth.

but an inability to leave the judgment 

or conclusive positions truly invalidates the effort 

of any process towards self-discovery in a deeper way, 

for the value of growth and transformation.

there is no burden to remembering 

but there is a stockade of self-verdicts if protection 

or apprehension are the internal conscious demand.

who you now have within your self-awareness 

to witness this process from the beginning, 

all the way to being full-blown, 

will either bless you with new insights and transition 

or curse you with reactivation of private fears 

that lucidly live within you 

but hardly ever otherwise surface to be dealt with.

that it is dynamic to recall and to thoroughly remember 

has true value in becoming a vaster being of consciousness 

on the inside but not without a resolute sense of self 

in this transition and a capacity to see oneself in a deeper light than reality generally has as its broadcast.

We all have had powerful experiences that without recall 

have limited benefit towards growth and yet 

we have the baggage of carrying it with us almost unknown until the re-stimulation awakens it all, in the first person, draped in conclusions 

as the view and judgments and the outcome.

it is richly rewarding to revisit 

with the deeper sense of self as discovery, 

not so much to change the original outcome, 

but to truly benefit from sourcing yourself 

in a deeper way this time, this way through it, 

so that the compression and the load are diminished 

and the sense of self has more carriage and light 

having come through it, 

more lifted into the now.

Go find the list of the heavies and prepare yourself 

to investigate in such a way that you bring who you are, 

as of now, to thoroughly go through that stimulus 

as situational and harvest a deeper understanding of self 

and how self functioned then as opposed to how, 

you of now, would have handled that situation of then.

You allow yourself to have a greater capacity to view 

and experience yourself and to use those dynamics 

to become more clear and conscious with who you are as of now and what you are more deeply about 

within the self-privacy of whatever it is that you do.

Your emotional elephant is essentially design to give you 

a wisdom to see clearly and thoroughly as a self 

that grows from your own process 

and then shares from a deeper place of clarity 

and self love going forward . . .