you also being me 2/18/18

I have tried to get into the fabric of you

by sight and smell and touch

the images stops at the door of my eyes

I don’t like the looking across

with the declared space in between

I can never loose the distance by sight

but I can go inside myself and feel

you are much closer that way

not so much body to body

but field to field as if coming into one field

not so much as separate disappearing

but one field emerging as if a deeper recognition

I know of myself better by this occurrence

it is stupid to name you as see you as over there

somewhere within there is a virtual oneness

I am grounded by that as an awareness

can’t explain, not sure feelings would justify

to me, very Siamese-like but in an etheric way

share thoughts without a need for conclusions

the obviousness of real conversation is late, falls short

all peoples should eventually be like this

this is not a pronouncement of love

nothing eventful as if to represent

if this is a streaming of consciousness

as if two are one, we want more and more often

I would want everyone to have a connection like this

in their daily life going forward

we are not the same world for how or that this happens

this must happen unannounced daily around the world

either by accident or by practices intended this way

I wouldn’t call it prayer, maybe a kind of empathy

when I think back, this could have occurred before

but I was too consumed in something

to not be able to pay attention in this deeper way

for me, there are faint first steps like this every day

but for some reasons, not sure, I have turned away

sort of like vibes but not justified or that evident

but in this case, soothing in the overwhelm

my field of being and attention must be larger and softer

this isn’t physical in the obvious but still presents as real

I just can’t have judgment and then resist directly

it feels more like swimming once the fluidity is realized

damn, once I realized this, at a very subtle level

this is going on almost constantly when people are around

I just have had or developed a resistance as if for protection

this is so strange to not be in it all of the time, consciously

there is this enormity but not, can’t prove it, but is

why would I have ever pushed to feel singularly alone?

I look at fear and wonder how that ever got started

so many levels to being a person and avoiding this

all these levels do exist yet being aware seems strange

like we are trained to go around sort of isolated

but this is there and happening all of the time

just not accounted for and otherwise approved of

yet my every want includes this connection to exist

I secretly wanted crowd to become one family

one family to be all close friends

for all my friends to be of one cause

maybe that would look like the same mindset

and then the world would make more sense to me

well we sort of our the world

but in so many broken pieces

maybe this is the get-back that everyone has to approach

I am not happy or sad about it either way

but there is a feeling of destiny calling within me

and I want to be open to this possibility through me

so I am looking forward to meeting you and being you

as you also to being me  . . .