the experience of thin air 4/9/19

thin air is only a reference to me

as the experiencer

a conclusion based upon the natural awareness

of the personal world in my surround

I reach this place by tapping all my senses

until I get no new information 

about the what, the where, and the why

of my circumstance

I terminate my pursuit

by claiming the resolute of “thin air”

it is as if I look into a mirror

and all I see is all I see

but that see is referential 

to the who of me who is looking

it says very little about the mirror

but massively says lots 

about my ability to observe

it is a land between lands

who I am versus what I see

and the difference between the two 

is much the same as ‘thin air’

it is my self sacred way 

of claiming limits to my observational skills

without actually gaining any deeper penetrative insight

thin air is innocuously claimed

I don’t admit to anything by this means

in that my mind has worked towards conclusions

I have a bundle of them

and I am at my wit’s end 

so to speak 

all of this begs the question 

not what else do you see

but more so, who else do you have 

who can look for me as me

despite my claim about thin air?

for there is no thin air

there is only the ability of penetrative insight

which leads to a version of

thinking outside the normative box

to gain a deeper sense of self

by a wider scope and a deeper vision

and a sensory range that is not bound by

story, convention, belief, realistic account,

moral version, or historical identity.

‘thin air’ is a sign for the end of the road

there is no end

if conclusions don’t make it so

the end of the road

is only a sense for self imprisonment  

an acceptance of think no further

get no timely results that make any rational sense

it is as if the excursion was for furthering the story

and not living deeper into the truth

insanity breathes from the same air

identity is consequential 

though hardly living on the cutting edge of self

we succumb to being curators of the evidential

thin air gives us a sense for safe carriage in that way

thin air is a resolve and a resolute pretend

a claim about the prison walls that nobody can see

and no further passage is possible

things like; that is too far distant, 

it’s from another time, 

not exist in my world, 

that is not in God’s creation,

or how do you know that to be true?

thin air is actually more akin to shallow breathing

as that imposes physical limits to the self as a being

thin air is the dare that is ever hardly taking

so if so inclined

take deeps breaths 

and venture deeply into thin air

and don’t expect to come back the same

or to come back with experiential answers 

that demystify 

thin air is ever breathing into destiny’s calling . . .