indifference can bark

the many faces of indifference 

have seen too many conclusions 

that either go no where in effectiveness

or just stand around 

being judgmentally no fun.

if the thought process was a form 

of mind-travel

then, seen-it, done-it, been-there 

breeds indifference.

if topic seems to be a bleed-out

or a righteous blatant bold-face lie

or leading one into an abstract dally 

or bating one into endless questions 

about the scourge of pending details

or topic weighed against time of interest

then maybe indifference rears up in a flush.

it can come to be 

a general demeanor of presentation

for purposes of saving on time, face, 

the show of interest.

yes, it is one thing as a public projection

but another as an ongoing state of mind.

this could be a chicken and egg thing

as in which came first,

the world is an indifferent place

or one is indifferent to the world.

either way, mind is both at effect 

and in consequence.

indifference is a working perspective.

it is investment 

and denial sequencing together.

it's a self-guardianship in its rigorousness 

but not clearly identified

as to the who or what 

of self being protected.

it's posed as a reactive state

but active in the attention it takes 

to be on guard.

none of it is real 

and it is mostly a gloss.

not an easy basis for generating self as value

even though there maybe be 

an inner claim as such.

it is a house of cards as a brain trust.

indifference is over-griping 

on the protest position

by a passivity that denies its true existence.

there is a lot of complexity 

buried into indifference.

it is a cultivation cured 

over in-time circumstances

great surmise has produced 

a dumb-down response

it is the angst of passivity 

in actively promoted silence.

at some point anguish was wagging its tail.

indifference is a welcome mat 

to a haunted house.

if the truth be told 

can never approach the first person lips.

we, as a culture-weave, 

seem to produce an endless supply.

you want indifference?

you want that delivered 

or is this a local pickup?

on any given day 

every mirror will face back at indifference.

not all of the time, but adequately, enough.

indifference, starts with a mindset installed

and eventually becomes the face 

of a self-industry.

it's never an original version of a self.

certainly not autobiographically intended

but can come to represent 

an untold story of self

that has no clear beginning

and very possibly no ending 

in the fore-see-ables to come.

if there was a dermatology for indifference,

then emotions would need 

to find a new language base

to represent cause and worthiness 

in a new skin.

hey think of it this way:

indifference is like having an imaginary dog

on a hard wire leash 

that looks like a real leash

but upon closer inspection,

no real dog 

and really, no flex 

in the appearance of leash.

indifference has no reason 

to go to the dog-park

ever . . .