happiness is an inside job 12/30/18

happiness is an inside job

not the one claimed by experience

as if from the search there in

not the one with eventfulness all over its face

not the one that feeds into the story line cast

happiness isn’t a weathering condition

as in right place, right time

happiness is on the internal motherboard

it is built in but overshadowed

maybe hidden in a dark room

I know, sounds so strange

well then send out a search party

from within 

but then, for pause,

it is not found that way

and is not a payoff for effort exerted

happiness is not in response to anything external

sure, it can mindfully looked that way

as in things that make you happy

but upon further review

that you would use an external switch

to turn on your happiness 

is a very culture-bound notion of method

as in a training and a set of beliefs

that we all have gone through myth-fully 

as if the truth be now known that way

nope, the only thing you get for those efforts

is a justification for exhibiting happiness

you have an account, an excuse,

a set of circumstances 

in which exhibition of apparent happiness

is plausible and accepted as such

but that happiness has a timeline

on it means of cover and circumstance

in the mind game way

you can only be happy when appropriate

you can tap that place within

but you, in your mind-game, 

better have cover for it

like a reason and a storyline to keep safe

happy without reason is suspect

yet happiness exists before and beyond reason

it is a realized state of being

but properly unknown to most by that means

happiness is a consciousness before self-consciousness

yet, for most, only to be realized in a self sense

and thereby in need of cover and confidently so

in our reality sense

you couldn’t be happy in the middle of chaos

or in paradoxical situations, or perplexed

or totally down and out

and still be fundamentally happy from deep within

most would view you as a sick puppy

dilemma-land is hounding your ass

and you still feel essentially happy?

for most, not a clue as what that would mean

or be like.

but it is there and available

it like a kind of vibrational honesty

that you can’t justify to others with or about

that happy is beyond sensing

cognition is relevant but minimal to the cause

that happy is uninterruptible 

but also easy not to authentically notice

as in oneself 

without all the drama and circumstance imploding 

yes, it is a kind of focus 

but not wildly effortful 

more like letting go beyond letting go

it doesn’t play as a conclusion to anything

there is no reality dismally involved

it is just there from within

heartfelt, without mind intervention

a happiness that prevails without effort

it is a surrender to a deeper truth 

then reality can conjure

it has no face to respond

no mindset to travel on

no time that is inappropriate

you breath into without notice

until it comes to pass

that you do as you are . . .