Mind full of residence (2)

part two:

small deaths of the mind

Below the horizon of recognition’s

outward declaration

are the internal foibles.

They represent the small deaths

of a custodial mind at work;

the exclusive harnessing

of sensory input

as clues towards

recently stored events

actively repeating themselves

with a front-page type

of attention and concern,

the voracious appetite

for identification in rapid fashion

as if speed were

the only justification needed,

the billboard of knowingness

and the broadcast position

of the host,

the entitlement to the epicenter

of the stage,

the momentum

of constant perusal to find,

the endless solicitation

of agreement’s position,

the ongoings

of the interpreter status

with confidence,

driven by the disingenuous fetish

of re-creating blessed moments

out of now,

and an operatic nature

for conclusiveness

followed by

an etched-in-stone type

of judgment style

that says internally to oneself,

“you have fooled me once,

but not any more,”

in a kind of blade dulling suspicion

that only enlarges the blind spot

covering all

potent irrational energetic reasons

for living.

As if comparison’s method

never ceases to revive

a hapless past

with disappointment’s pledge

to continue the search

of replication without end.

It is a wonder

that an original moment

actually ever occurred

in a custodial mind

as a consciousness environment.