the nature of becoming

we all fall into the nature of becoming.

the insightfulness of expectation

limits the options and terms the prerogative.

it's as if a menu was provided,

so that becoming

is a step by step process

and not an instantaneous discovery,

as luck would have it 

or destiny spontaneously bestowed.

sure, options that appear and are near and dear

may be circumstantial as propinquity's offerings.

conditionings from the nearby

may be profoundly attractively distracting

but there is an internal ping to all of this,

as in many things may pass

and few may inherently register, 

as that is very becoming.

is the apparent wear-age of oneself 

the true expression of their being?

sure we can try on gender, age-related, 

doing being intelligent to our sense of satisfaction,

have locale plays a determining role,

seeking approval as choice selection options,

have futurization beckon us forward in selections chosen,

or free-fall with what impression comes our way.

becoming is such a self-audience term

that may only truly exist as reflective, 

looking back at what has become.

at least what you have become 

has a narrative,

whether it is authentic pronouncement or not.

but becoming has such intrinsic beguilement to it,

as if I am to believe who I say I am.

becoming is an easy account as a worn tire

but as a person, 

how to contemplate the before, 

as a process of the after

and be in the during as ongoing.

so, we are all becoming,

but that may be just summational to say,

as a state of conclusion, 

that has philosophical self-implications.

but becoming as a cutting edge of thought,

that is where delicious meets the road,

if actualization was that naively accessible.

is this the cross between aspiration and execution?

is this the discovery versus the search?

or fundamentally, drivenness versus drawnness,

and obvious appearance falls where it may? 

becoming can be a desire 

or an evidential outcome presenting.

at least it is politely self-philosophical.

there could have been terms and tendencies 

and the favor of the unexpecteds

as well as the benefits of the lack there ofs.

is becoming what is so wondrous 

about dress rehearsal,

given the range and the depth 

that can be inwardly implied?

personally, I would start with before birth,

as in a choice of parents

and eventually work my way up to

the status of looking back,

trusting that my surmise is genuine

and that becoming has lifetimes to go . . .