inward authenticity

conclusionary reality has memory as its crutch,

as days spent under conclusionary clouds in passing.

the shelf-life of render 

lives in conclusionary's stock room.

it's hard to get out from under

and not have a conclusionary view ever-monitoring.

the gaps in life between conclusions as consciousness

are few and limited.

the shackles of summary 

are ever mounting summational. 

we are all run-on sentences of self in prospective.

language lobbies for that status report, constantly.

hardly any say 

brings us into the actual immediate moment,

but does duly report on it ongoings with conclusions. 

we are syntactically captured 

by these as our own methods.

our minds become audience to feature our lives.

lucid moments, when they inadvertently happen,

are overrun with the paparazzi of experience,

which subsequently translates into being 

by being language bound.

sure, at times, feel can escape the overwhelm,

but that medium is hard pressed 

to give a later lucid account.

summary assaults the moment 

with supreme override.

we all carry the venomous experiential account

versus authentic first person immersion,

both in and beyond time,

as in a fast moving river never stops for poses.

so what you get, 

by experiential capture,

is all static 

and under-realized of its relevance 

as the poignancy of each second in passing 

in human consciousness aware.

this is lost in experiential's account, 

by then put to words.

vibes can be shared before 

but not as spoken.

if we inter-feel with another,

experience will want the capture of that. 

it would appear that we are nothing

without the staging of self as enterprise.    

memory is such an advocate for this

and conclusions are the army 

that defends this into further existence.

it's hard to be a snitch about inward authenticity,

when we are all in the same prison for life . . .