the self as enterprise

when the self is an audience perspective,

experience is entertainment.

comparative truth is a final outcome.

personal growth is a talk-about

but actual movement is fantasy.

yes, things change from a then

to a now,

but change is not internal growth,

just circumstantial for appearance sake.

to get from understanding to actualization

is not audience sanctioned.

the inner work takes a witness position

beyond the projection of self outwardly.

one not only has to apprehend circumstance,

as it comes into play,

but also inwardly study how self is applied.

how what is thought is actually thought,

beyond what results occur 

and from where within one hurls oneself

into more clarity of being consciously attended.

it is not so much changing the surround

as much as it is transform 

from where within,

that one attends and orients. 

external is just experiential as a substitute.

internal is sourcing oneself more deeply

in a conscious way and its subsequent means.

it is more that what is said

becomes from where within it is hurled.

it is where one finds the passion of their being

and wholly inwardly attends,

giving them self a sense of spirit as witness,

a greater dimension of source as present,

more emotional evocativeness in the moment.

the discovery of how self evolution 

is caring for others.

is becoming more of the energetic truth 

presented by presence.

and where outer world is the audience of possible interest

and presence is the offering given.

one becomes a conduit for the passion of their being

to consciously attended as a meaningful life explored.

experience is a distractive existence

until one creatively provides from within,

giving clarity of being

and emotional presence forthcoming. 

transcendence is then every moment's evolution.

one is at source 

and not audience to oneself. 

the orientation is radically different once developed.

self love is ever the emittance, 

without strategy involved as its means.

life is the creative expression of being

as a conduit ever unfolding outwardly

yet inwardly sourced, 

as if channeling one's higher self into life.

it's an energetic physics 

that becomes second nature of living.

the risk is to inwardly trust,

to feel for the depth and the emotional carriage.

yet most of our thought training gets in the way.

how we are thought-provoked denies the depth needed

for the self to deeply realize from within,

as we so cater to the exterior for order and clues.

consensus is not consciousness,

its just superficial in an acceptance mode.

we all want exuberance to come thru

but the self rigor for that to be so

is very inward and requires a sense of self witness

beyond being mindful.

one has to even watch how one's thought works

and who of the self it habitually works for.

our conditioning makes that effort difficult

to initially to attend. 

we are all so content distracted 

that we are concerned with what is thought

rather than how it is thought of.

who of whom within is served 

by the methods of thought used?

it can feel so strange to be responsible

for how one's thought patterns work.

it can be assumed as a given

until one becomes aware enough to address

not only how one's thoughts as a pattern

can be done differently

but more importantly,

to discover who those thought patterns inwardly serve

and to come to an inward clarity 

about who that is of one self 

that is living one's life as such.

for anyone to actually discover 

that they are not living

the life that they want,

but more so, are involved in the life

that seems vacantly accessible 

by external circumstance presenting,

to then source existence from within,

is an all new endeavor of private enterprise.

the external can still look almost the same

but eventually the internal is source-fully different.

one becomes more the passionate expression of being

and more the emotional presence of their being.

life then comes through 

and is not so much what is apparently happening . . .