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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Polite insincerity * 7/26/12

The secret

to polite insincerity

is a supposed

pseudo self-agreement.

The verbiage expressed

by polite insincerity

towards another party

is authored

from a deep subterfuge

of internal resentment.

The resentment is based

and built upon

not initially being seen

authentically as oneself,

earlier in life

respectfully by significant others.

Therefore internally questioning

the realness of themselves

is their own disparity existence.

There is pending low self worth

but not necessarily a given.

Being seen as of value,

meaning and validation to others

is now somewhat sabotaged

by their self-image of denial

as presented back to them,

reflected

in every first person exchange.

Living as a self-scripted pawn,

yet meeting expectation’s decree,

cultivates this talented projection.

Polite insincerity engenders

its own self-imposed

life of imprisonment

on daily doses of candid display.

It garners an effective distancing

from others implicit demands

but does not , by any measure,

implore for help from another.

Aloneness is its method of escape

yet promotes further means

of personal invalidation.

It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy

based upon

bogus appreciative manners.

Polite insincerity becomes its own

private valid survival of deeds.

Secretly saying to oneself,

if you buy my act, my projection,

then you really can’t see me

or actually help me.

In this case, low self worth

is living for consensual

though undeclared proof.

Polite insincerity,

although it leaves clues

with everyone encountered,

basically is seething

as a substitute for self-worth . . .

Polite insincerity requires

excellent personal skills

to compensate

for the feigning

of personal charm

and a caring presence.

Once discovered for what it is,

people accept by absentia

and this lack of attraction

from others as a person

becomes a way of life.

The self-insularity continues

and no one has access

to alter it except the person

who professes it

as a means of protection

to function in their world.

Polite insincerity,

a mask without true merit

for the person wearing it

as their presentable means . . .

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