talking with chemical words * 7/1/13

In the brain,

they are talking with chemical words.

What we get from their conversations

is hearsay and summations,

since so many are talking at once

and we are not listening in that way.

Even in restaurants or parties,

there is no close proximity

we can compare.

We don’t even get a first person

candid conversation with any of them.

Sure, we get contact highs

and periods of depression

but no presence directly

on their playing field even though

this is all within our own heads.

Hey this is our neighborhood

of personal influence

but we do not really know

any one of them,

dopamine, nor epinephrine,

and serotonin, in particular.

It’s like a form of heritage

maybe genealogical certainty

although customized and cruising

on the inside, we cater to

the socialized sort of thing,

like we are an advertising firm

hired to deal with public image

and manage persona and projection.

I am not saying there cannot be

a diary or private untold thoughts

but I am saying,

all of that is far removed

from where the action really is happening

but somehow the interface carries on,

somehow we derive a sense of composure,

somehow we claim sovereignty.

We are sold on the hologram.

The internal motherboard

is rarely mentioned.

We have referential terms,

terms of inference,

slang for the eventual results

as they outwardly may appear.

Anybody who is empathic or telepathic

is weird or strange and duly noted

as such, a thousand times a day.

Direct messages are sent to us in passing

but we generally ignore most of them.

We have no rights to self-lexicons

at least not for sharing purposes.

Yes, we can become adrenal junkies,

major depressives, bi-polars,

the giddies and airheads,

but rarely do these wires get crossed

with another human directly.

If so, we go with the ‘vibes theory’

favorable or otherwise.

We create friendships

as if we live in comparable foreign lands

as our alliances demand.

Even the concept of soul mates

is concretized in false representations.

Surely we can name all of these chemicals

as if models of cars on the highway

but do we really know the cargo

or their method’s motion and delivery

and the who of us in receivership?

It’s only our translation

that makes it into a story.

This task force is always at work

and we are always in audience.

But we are only mildly attentive

for they are talking with chemical words

and we are in rough translations

of what it all does and what it all means

towards representing the ‘each’ of us . . .