what if there

 

I feel exposed  

to the imprisonment of contextuality. 

where logic is a trickster of endless means.

intelligence is all but audience perspective.

to where we have come forth

to negotiate the warehouse of earthliness. 

let's just say, 

there is a beyond of all of that.

and I am deeply attracted 

to the myopic idiosyncratic feel, 

beyond what I would normally feel.

say a drawnness 

to the experience of experiencing.

to delve into the residence 

of broadcast itself

as separate 

from the residence of reception.

to sense the inklings 

that manifest before the decision-state,

the intake flow 

during the output broadcast,

this zone of those in passage intermingling,

the fill from the impressionably active

amidst the automatic presence 

of the intentional,

to that which exists as awareness 

before recognition concurrently occurs,

becoming aware 

of the ongoing as ever-flow

and its orientation 

as perception would assign.

what is the thought of it 

to it as intervention? 

is it the seeding of presumption, 

the instilledess of presence, 

the feel of active participation

some how so deep of a presence necessary

as to have a sense for active intervention, 

either as healing or method of recovery, 

or intentional as behavioral action.

but all of this as primarily occurring, 

at what first appears,

at what subtle would be perceived as.

is this the feel of experiencing experience?

not the product there of

but is this the sense 

of the workings of isness itself?

for that which is generally beyond 

sensory range of intake,

that, that can only name it as an action

and is not available to be 

as an existence of an object?

more so, to describe its flow 

as its integrative means,

as if no drop of water in a stream of water

lives an individuated existence of life

available to our means of differentiation? 

do we surrender from the itness, 

we claimed,

where objectification has less of an impact

and meaning is 

as a softer frame of reference.

where whatever I grasp as an object 

will soon pass

as my attention frames ever unfolding?

but the means of that grasp that I make

is open for further study,

from the object of intention

to the source of intendedness,

to the impulse response to sensory claims,

to that which fires as consciousness sighted,

to that which energetically acts on

from beyond what one knows where from,

even to that 

which is from other frames of reference,

be that of time by other lifetimes

or traumas from other circumstances

or sensing this linkage from deeper truths 

than meaning can command?

sources from other dimensions as active but unknown,

for when I take off the cover of meaning 

as relevant

and revive and reside in a deeper state

than would work as understanding,

or even to pass as the existence of truth 

for then?

where I would consciously give up 

the know

to come to the expansive exactitudes 

in all of energetic integrative lightness? 

and there, once there,

as if there had or was a there,

there, to be (?) . . .