when violence occurs

 

when violence occurs, big raw violence,

positionality is on the thaw.

this is where conclusion's half-life 

is too long.

the inbreeding of belief 

is still living in the dark.

what that belief stands for emotionally, 

is undisclosed. 

deep emotional miff-dom though, 

has an open wound

but not decipherable 

by these past actions taken.

motive has logical cognitive overwhelm to it.

we make it hard to understand as if sensible.

the illogical ice has melted 

into violent action 

but we see it as slippery when wet.

meltdowns have 

more than surface tension active

but we want tally 

based upon results of the hereafter.

blame is so far from source 

as an audience response

as if polar opposites 

that claim emotional kinship. 

accusational is fitful unto itself. 

it is as a gag-order resistance.

temporality can't produce motive 

as the cause

and muddledom does not speak in tongues.

every violent act is hurting for embrace

but the timing for embrace is now, 

far from the truth.

violence is isolation 

inventing it's own action-speak

using a context as a launchpad of notice.

public and private are viable concerns 

for these actions.

there is a logic applied for that

but the act of itself is loaded 

with nameless and faceless,

despite whatever appears to be the claim.

real-cause is now an elixir 

that has miserably failed 

although the elements are highly reactive 

in the now.

any substance mixed with emotion 

that is decidedly explosive, 

carries within itself 

a baffling display 

of muted cause-worthiness. 

there is no one the wiser 

for the results that abound 

and the surround of baffled 

and dismay on display.

newsworthy has a hook 

for emotional concern

but getting to the cause, 

getting to the real cause,

getting to the essence of the seat of the cause

is profoundly and resoundingly remote.

we, as a culture, do not live near integration of this kind.

we are phone-booth self isolationists in mind

but seriously emotional gathers, 

wanting for heart to happen.

violence has a source way, 

before buildup and blast

but wildly remote and deeply held within.

reactionism, as hidden response, 

does not die naturally.

it festers as if the essence of a pearl-bomb 

in the making,

and that pearl, 

the one made into a pearl-bomb,

has layers and layers 

of seething private emotional input.

but we remain uninvolved, 

as self to self remote.

yes, there are signals and behavioral clues

but we are a nation of self as projection.

therefore there is a closet 

of self very possible

and a pearl in the making 

does not seek light.

irritants can become looming 

on the inner landscape of self.

one can personally know, 

but yet not self-acknowledge.

one can live around and with that festering. 

we have that kind of self space 

and privacy freedom,

all of the time, 

as if it represent aloneness and isolation,

a distance away 

from deeper connections of need.

violence can get your attention 

but not really express 

the essence of the distain 

or the emotional means of the fester.

how far back into life does one go

to source the origin of this distain?

the collapse of expectation into vengefulness,

as the seeded-ness of the act-out to come?

self is the source of the mastery 

but where within 

does one reach within 

from one-self to qualify?

is self-empathy the first course 

of intimate self-conscious action?

birth is square one

so where from there do we, 

as a people, self-start? . . .