sabotage made sacred

 

there is the sabotage of hidden agendas

in that those who practice 

have a concealed overseer

who has inward interruption permission

whose vitality is based on strategy

and whose energetic source is insistence. 

it has seeing fresh-eyes 

for everything observed

as well as inner dialogue 

of fervor and continuance.

there is an allegiance 

to outward-unspokenness,  

and a smooth carriage 

behind all apparent animation.

the coloring book is made of strategic. 

all the crayons of action 

have a coolness to the grip.

the difficulty of hidden agendas 

is a timeline away

and a mindset short 

of escaping the storyline, ever.

all the ingrain training 

that goes into the hiddenness

overemphasizes gain overcoming loss,

a sidedness version 

of short-term value posing as worth.

the big picture is reduced 

to poignancy's moments.

all the skillsets gained 

are based on almost immediate gain.

one has undersold 

the deeper philosophy for living

to be a success in the story 

they wish to accomplish.

all the rewards will need 

a curator of memory,

a zest of ego as the story teller for later

and a confinement 

to earned groundedness for life.

the surround of victory, 

in a short story kind of way,

provides that hidden agendas 

have a drug quality to them.

every accomplishment 

is another pill downed.

it becomes a prop-fest 

of hidden directives in play.

emotional seething is 

a supporting cast of bystanders.

any victory claimed is 

eventually very short-sighted,

for there is no ascendency, 

just triumph in a flat way.

mindsets get old being ever the trickster behind the scenes.

sunlight of being is not refreshing 

but a bother to deal with.

can't shake it, can't loose it, 

just live to ignore it.

hidden agenda is ever the workout gymnasium in that way.

the mirror time provided 

only displays from the past.

hidden agenda has mountains to climb 

in mindful ways

as the sabotage is eventual 

as maybe a discovery,

as in you only get to covet 

what you've actually earned

but in this case, earned is stained 

with negative consequences, 

as the emotional worth 

rightfully on human display.

treacherous is a form 

of self honesty once revealed

but it is only the stamina 

of a cruel heart's efforts

at legitimizing its position of worth

without realizing 

its method's shortcomings in gain.

for gain, as in acquire, 

only burdens the load

in attempting to get to a lightness of being.

both hidden and agenda 

are at a loss to comprehend

where the exercise of method 

deadens their efforts.

surrender to the integrity 

of being was never in play.

thus the sabotage is 

and was self inflicted.

if hidden agenda is necessary,

it better be as a surrender 

into the hidden heartfelt lightness 

from within . . .