trying to try

trying is only trying

and change is only change.

doing believing holds on

to a past version of efforting.

mind is the work of the retentive state of self

and not the isness of being, living forward.

every moment is a creative enterprise,

but one's sense of narrative imposes limits,

as if there is a fact-check on future behavior,

based on apprehensions from the past,

shaping the habituals of self in action.

one's future is not what one has already thought.

life is really poetic as free verse.

and rhyming is just a statement of, 

as habit is only for audience approval.

channeling oneself is art.

and the human endeavor is for that to occur.

following mentality is ordering from the menu. 

but instead,

in a vegetarian philosophical way of style,

get out there in the spirit of oneself

and grow your own . . .