disarming consciousness

imagine consciousness is as a tool.

and self-consciousness is that tool being used.

and isness is the hands-on user of that tool.

and what is isness up to 

with the use of that tool?

is knowhow the method to be used?

and if so, how did knowhow get that job?

and if knowhow did,

besides accomplishment, 

what else does knowhow know?

the reputation for knowhow is,

it knows how to do what it does.

it measures itself by deed enactment.

accomplishment is its just reward.

it enters into the world of other's approval

by commentary, as if then, respect, 

and then expectation's gain is by reputation.

but consciousness, as a tool,

that does not thrive on external representation.

consciousness is not based on results.

otherwise all of life as living 

is just a mirror reflecting the immediate past.

yet consciousness is the presence in this moment

without history as its guide.

but experience would want it to be 

the creation of expectations met

and the results of such a viewing as proof.

then consciousness would be a result-effort

that guides and corrects for, 

by the directorship of the past.

in that case, all of consciousness is at risk,

if for any sense of evolution 

or for transformation to occur.

for intentionality only seeks to honor

what is evidentially past as proof, there of.

and then consciousness is just a self assignment,

governed by rational mind constituencies.

and consciousness is substantially replaced

by a version of self-consciousness proving its worth.

and within that insularity, 

the habits and rituals and accomplishments

are a reductionism 

to what they only intend to represent.

and consciousness becomes a projection

of outer-worldly interest,

as if self is one's broadway show

and others are there to approve by attendance

as emboldening audience perspectives of worth.

in this format,

isness has lost its expression 

of the essence of consciousness

to mental equivalency 

and to its experiential coverage 

as a meaningful life.

it's doubtful 

that consciousness is a servant of meaningful.

and that understanding rules the world consciously.

and our goal in consciousness

is as if to become a tool of the usage of others,

mastering their own tools in the process?

no, consciousness is not result-oriented in being.

otherwise, life is a swap-meet

of tools, techniques, and created goods and wares,

bought, sold, and or otherwise exchanged.

and we, as the makers, the sellers, and the selves,

only have ourselves 

as the self-consciousness 

of that consciousness? 

that is not we, as isness, 

would want to proclaim . . .