the predicament of either or

the issues that are up for the claims: 

acquisitional versus actualization, 

the methods of control 

versus the path of focusing.

where within, control has its drivenness,

while focus has its drawnness.

skills outwardly acquired 

or skills inwardly discovered.

the taking command of yourself

or the coming into yourself.

is the self package-able in the obtaining 

or compositional in the uncovering?

sensing for a command of self

or feeling for integration from within oneself?

the surrendering of resistance 

or the embracing of inwardness as surrender.

pursue to fix 

or create out of reframe.

to clarify for the purpose of understanding

or to re-immerse oneself in the trust to be.

feeling compelled 

yet not inwardly called.

accomplished 

but not actualized.

the integrity of surrender to a sense of a higher self

or realizing the temporal value of accomplishment.

channeling ones higher self 

as an expansion of spiritual witness

by being the embodiment of flow

or being the bystander 

to one's own act-outs.

knowledge does not guarantee integration,

it just allows for accountability.

noting the differences between being inwardly called

or outwardly compelled.

one's self-narrative having needs 

to be creativity composed

or rationally constructed?

who is the part of oneself 

who does all the think

for the thoughts that you get?

who is that part of oneself 

that generates the feelings

that eventually surface  

registered as felt 

and in their presence, 

fulfill as confirming?

thus the predicament 

that soul searching,

lingers . . .