you want

you want…

to get to the who you are of you? 

the essence of you?

the energetic truth of you?

the you, 

who generates the initial why 

of your self orientation?

and to get to the how of this orientation?

and the how it essentially works? 

and where that origin of how 

essentially comes from? 

that, that comes from somewhere within you?

and then to discover,

who of you is this, 

as the source of this how? 

that is inwardly in response in return? 

within that private internal dialogue, 

where all of this ongoingly occurs.

you would like to know who that is?

how that of you functions as you?

and why that of you, presses on, 

with the methods that you of you use,

that you, sort of unknowingly, called you?

then how is that to be, 

that you would be an example of yourself,

to yourself?

so that you can commit 

to this as a live experiment 

of your own evolution?

first hand,

while it is dynamically happen?

so you would want that to be? 

to be the walk,

to observe the walk,

to dissect the walk,

relative to its means,

and its otherwise hidden or undisclosed methods,

of its obvious purpose,

and also its hidden purpose

behind the self expression,

behind and beyond 

what the obvious is that appears to be, 

as your demonstrated and stated case?

you would want

to be witness

to your own evolution

in a conscious way,

in the livingness experiment of your life?

is that what you want?

well that want-person of you

in only an audience participant.

they are the impetus driving you.

but what you really are calling for

is the drawnness of you,

from deep within,

to compel you 

into the passion of your own self discovery.

do you want to be witness,

to where within you

the passion of your being awakes

and sources you more deeply 

than the externalness of life, demands?

do you want your life 

as a creative means of spirit expressing you

through your daily otherwise mundane existence?

and to make this perfectly clear,

you don't want to be, 

as if audience impressed with yourself?

but you do want to be the manifest of your spirit,

where your inner awareness directs you

to bring to life, 

the spirit of you,

by whatever internal means and complicated circumstance, 

in spite of your apparent outwardly presented existence?

you want to not be distracted by outer reality

but to be so inwardly creative and sourced

that outer reality is sill a medium of expression

for the essence of you, 

but in your being constant self discovery ongoing?

you want 

to be where, your wanting,

does not create a self as audience.

but where your wanting compels 

the essence of you to come forth.

and to be conscious, through your mediums of existence

as it presents itself 

both before and through you.

you want to be,

where want becomes a self permission,

to be of a passion, 

as a way of life

and to create skills towards source and expression

of this, as your life unfolding.

so that want, 

what you want,

becomes a yearn.

and that yearn becomes drawnness.

and that drawnness reveals essence of your self,

as the energetic truth of you 

ever forth expressing.

so what else would want, 

your want, 

or anybody's want, 

be good for,

besides the evolution of one's being? . . .