now what?

we so want language to work for us.

we so want understanding 

to reflect our worth.

we so want worth to be self approval 

as a technique.

we want knowing to be more than 

just movement noticed.

we want knowing 

to be somehow transcendent,

to enter into a realm 

of above and beyond experience.

yet we do want experience 

as an endpoint production,

with all the lather of talk applied 

and comprehension woven in

and then, somehow we arrive.

we have transformed.

we have retention to prove to ourselves 

we have.

we have perspective to give us 

a depth of field.

we have come a long way 

but then we brought all of our mementos with us.

we just traveled all this way 

to be in another here, 

which eventually, in a timeline way,

becomes what we left behind

re-conventionalized as new content

based of the eldest wisdom 

of experience styles.

and what we want, we got out of wanting

which was not inspirational beyond belief.

we got what we innocently asked for

but not what was beyond 

our capacity to want.

want was a consensus failure 

of destiny recycled.

now what? . . .