waking up the dark angel 9//1/19

states of disrespect, greed and hatred 

are already self states of undisclosed suffering.

the fundamental elements that are present in this suffering 

are also present when not in suffering,

but composed in a radically different manner. 

generosity, love, respect, wisdom, compassion 

all have the same constitutional elements as suffering does

but the composition is fundamentally altered.

undisclosed suffering has a lot of full-frontal,

filled with an immediacy of potent reaction,

while the lack of sufferings has a time-fill

that provides for a depth of field as witness.

in this state, composition has an emotional depth,

even though the nature of observation

can be much the same as with suffering.

but the take-aways are radically different,

even if in both cases, conclusions are made ongoingly.

suffering claims to be an isolated feeling 

as a distance of permission is allow for rebuke.

the lack of suffering provides for a connection to be felt.

although the crucial elements are much the same, 

yet the source place within each person is different.

suffering features self as an immediate source place 

and in obvious isolation.

it maybe be possible to communicate about this,

but hard to convey.

while the lack of suffering pervades with an openness,

as in grounds for connectivity to be approached.

an assumption of linkage may already be in play,

that is just looking for a means 

of shared display to become evident.

while suffering impedes this process 

with a preoccupation of a skill-set like no other.

it has a self dialogue that functions 

more like a self-diatribe whether spoken out laud

or kept internal and usually privately voiced.

suffering may not tell the essential truth

but it will provide for 

by the appearance of the circumstances

in which a myopia seems justified.

symptoms can provide for much hearsay

without identifying the true source 

beyond the bodily evidence already revealing.

the primary source maybe subtly so vibratory

and yet we are grandly removed 

from direct contact with that 

or an essential connection to it made evident.

not everyone has easy or direct access 

to healthful vitality override.

some of our most difficult lessons as humans

first surfaces as suffering’s evidential surmise.

one can only be grateful 

that that dynamic is happening.

even though the preoccupation with it

can be experientially overwhelming.

yet the question remains,

how deep within can one reach

for the healer from within to come forth(?).

in suffering, we start out on the down-low 

of the human existential risk of living. 

we have smokey mirrors on our awareness ceilings 

and supposedly see new heights 

by a method called self-reflection.

but the skills to see through

with self penetrative insight 

are self-developmental.

suffering provides an endless classroom environment

for that to occur.

some will study to source

while others idle into comprehension.

suffering is a most powerful teacher,

way past circumstance and personal account.

suffering has its own divinity.

most won’t know about it in that way.

suffering will escort one 

to places beyond where suffering even exists.

and who returns from there

can make all the difference for themselves.

whether the body gets reclaimed

or the being moves on,

suffering has provided clues 

beyond the cultural norm.

it is essentially the life of a dark angel 

moving us to clarify 

from introspection within . . .