ahead of the curve

oh, to be ahead of the curve.

yes, we would all want that to be so,

as long as that is the game to be played.

but even if that were personally so,

the subtle problem is

that the curve is always and ever twisted and spiraling, 

either upward or down,

as a dimensional glitch that is in reality

and basically unaccounted for.

getting ahead assumes a certain constancy.

linear thinking applies itself to that.

yet, there is a depth in each moment

that does not surface as intention or goal,

that which does not calculate to mean,

that which produces ascent or decline,

but not in a particular linear mindful fashion,

no matter the perspective used.

there is a dimension out of range or focus.

maybe, blessedly so.

so, however far ahead,

is a correction for based on from behind

and then there is otherwise, 

the existence of now.

how now works 

is such a different orientation,

as so much more of emotional embodiment,

for some.

for others, it's a non-discerned interlude in passing.

now is hard to chase after,

as in, what is the skillset for that?

it is even calculable?

does it even respond to a timeline?

why is it a check-in function

as opposed to a be-from?

is camping only the campsite remembered 

as meaningful repurposed?

does now have any registry

other than sensory input and acknowledged?

is there a fountaining out of being

from deeply within,

that comes to be a consciousness of registry?

and for a self,

how is relevancy formed and acknowledged?

given all of these questions,

what does being ahead of the curve

really amount to relative to being? . . .