presence beyond its grasps

relentless is a mirror reflection,

reflecting the constancy of looking,

that reveals the terming of relentless.

the summation of the effort begets

a self in commentary.

not about the particulars that render

but eventually about the method itself.

the particulars are a satisfactory stationary 

as a distraction to the means.

but the method itself, 

when pondered more deeply, 

expresses the mindset behind the looking.

the who of me that seeks rendering,

only to be disposed 

of that which resides in account and appraisal.

which is an affect that I use 

to render a self, myself, as embodied.

repetitively upholding a sense of self,

even if lost in the myriad moments passing.

experience is such an add-on 

to a deeper sense of being.

beyond what experience has to offer 

as fill-in or as overwhelming placative substitute.

yet for us to be

in the mutuality of both,

is but beyond affect, 

as if experience generates a reality

that is duly composed of access and denial.

we are, by this method of enactment, 

as if this reality is our training to do so, 

in that light.

experience is only a mirror 

in a time-space continuum, 

perceived as the ongoing

and documented by experience 

as a reflected account.

this is all technique

and yet to be questioned. 

what is the deep rooted point?

not question, as if to contend,

but question as if to admit, 

by the method of questioning,

to a deeper state of being,

that is not compelled or dependent

or even existing within the confines

of time and space and experience as conjure.

what then, with a mind, is there to doing,

when being has properties yet to be defined,

as if doing could do so?

just asking,

but not referring to answer-ablility's cause.

just asking,

as if realize was as an embrace of oneness,

that did not dress up 

in reasonings, account, understanding's ploy,

or any other versionary sense to be implied.

there is a want,

to leave the content of thought,

for a presence beyond what it grasps . . .