boredom and monotony sat together
at the same gaming table.
believing that they were playing
in the same human occupancy game.
either side could show advantage,
as the mind,
as table created evidence,
as the game ever continued.
first boredom would get listless,
as facial cues on the human would reveal.
then monotony would sigh,
as if a slideshow of the same slide
was ever, next slide, happening,
as if incessantly playing.
neither side winning,
but both making presence evident,
as the moments of play rambled on.
one would eventually take precedent
but for now, positionality of mood played on.
sure there were other tells on display.
routine would display a formal ongoingness,
as a set of behavioral manners,
that seemed contained in purpose pursued,
despite whatever the interior of the self would say.
and habituals, as if subtler manners,
played a low key style,
using yawns, off hand scratching
of alternate arm or side pokes at one's face,
as adjustment in some facial measure.
neither was playing the mind-game directly
but both were easier contributors to the on-goings.
if you were astute,
you could ascertain the hidden evidence
of worry about what was already done
or the fret about what there was to do.
in either case, behavior would subtly display.
and as for the overt behaviors,
the ones with overtures of intent,
they would look like challenge, launched in speech
or sidebar feedback, given indirectly to spurn.
both possibly done as a way of tackiness as distraction
or a release of unclaimed tension spreading all around.
yet this was boredom versus monotony straight up,
as a form of poker, passing the mind-time,
supposedly spent on the game of attention.
you'd think that either of them
could have gone off with play or whimsy
as possible enjoyable ploys.
but not to be so.
boredom was working towards a judgment call.
something that would end the effort at gaming,
while monotony wanted the gaming to continue,
figuring on braking boredom's judgment stance.
monotony would go the extra mile if needed
and boredom wanted to withdraw all together,
like a frame-break that ended their efforts,
with a summoned victory as a change of mind,
while monotony was game to have a life of this,
even if it had to marry depression.
eventually boredom broke down,
had a change of heart as intervention,
while monotony finally realized that
there was no confrontation intended.
that boredom is essentially just a mind game.
it needs props to, to continue to play,
while monotony does mind gaming
but has residuals investing in emotional support
that boredom does not really possess.
so monotony took a deep stance
as to all that was happening,
while boredom went on its way
on to something else in the making.
and maybe they both realized
that they were not ever really playing
in the same game.
even though they both had god given rights
to the game-board of human occupancy . . .
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