anxiety as a prayer

 

emotionally die 

at the hands of every next person you meet

and then simultaneously inwardly discover 

that you continue to privately live 

in the self secret.

please continue to die 

with every one of these deaths

as monotonous 

and yet instinctively overwhelming

as each of them secretly is, 

until you discover the deep-well 

of empathy in your being

that represents the evident 

and yet hidden fear in them 

that you humbly and respectfully honor 

by dying 

in your silence in their presence

so they can uninterruptedly and unknowingly live on.

come to realize the power 

of your mystical presence

in its original source and stance 

and not the appearances of 'now' circumstances as overbearing consequences that you can only react to 

and that overwhelms you in this your current reality context.

but realize the deeper calling 

that resides within your awareness

that has confounded you 

from going forward

but inwardly compels you to do so

deeply admit to your anxiety 

and the subsequent self-disguise.

risk sourcing yourself in a deeper way

as presence in this moment

from a deeper place within

then the emotional unconsciousness 

of those around you.

you are not here to be in mercy 

for them or for you

but you are here to boldly be present

in the richness of your sightedness

and the wisdom of your spiritual clarity.

be a healer of soul

and not a victim of self 

dressed in the false karma of apprehension.

your anxiety should be 

a contradiciton-prayer for permission

to rise above and through 

that which vexes you

as if it is applause beckoning you 

truly forward

to source to the true depth of who you are

and share from there 

in your evolutionary service 

to humankind . . .