the myth of eventfulness 3/17/19

eventfulness is an audience addiction.

so many skills used for observation

feature an assumption of separateness,

a sensory passivity as a witnessing style.

for there is the big world

and then there is the personalized 

small world sense of it.

there are all the noted take-aways one can glean

but behind all of that,

are assumptions that harbor discretionary terms…

terms like; distinctiveness, complexity, dissimilarities,

distinctions, peculiarities, uniqueness, rarity,

idiosyncrasies, and stand-alone uniqueness.

these all posses an assumption 

of separate-from, in observance

yet they are the constructive elements of events

all of which softly feature

insolation, isolation and separateness of being.

experience makes a bucket list 

of memories out of these first-person takes.

easily life becomes audience featured

as a frame-break from daily life’s familiarity

until life is a mental equivalency 

of an audience sense of being,

where events are needed to replace 

the distance memories of previous events.

the ambience of life is lost 

in the search for the eventfulness of living.

one alone among many goes along way

as unsaid to oneself 

but forever thirsty in this search.

every moment is the same,

is a lost concept of being,

does not exist as a state of perpetual witness,

makes no rational or logical sense.

who could think like that and live?

what would be the point 

of having a deep awareness-residence like that?

maybe this is the difference

between being and doing,

where by doing is not really being

and yet being, this kind of being,

can be inside of doing . . .