why am I really here? 12/8/18

one has to discover that they are a self-experiment, 

in an original sense.

beyond the context rationally provided, 

culturally cultivated 

and parentally endured.

one has to have developed penetrative insight, 

not to live for answers 

but for deeper levels of questioning.

they have to realize there are no answers 

but only livingness beyond answers,

which provides for deeper levels of awareness 

in the witness sense.

one has to experiment 

and eventually see through rational constructionism.

eventually the deepest truths only exists as livingness.

for then, one keeps approaching the quantum of existence 

without standstill identification of it. 

real life does not pose.

‘why’ is a useless form of questioning…

‘how’ will take the hand of your mind 

and give you possible method.

the way we do think, 

in the learned and comfortable sense, is cozy 

but not actual lucid participation.

language is like a lint filter on the clothes dryer.

it is way after the process needed.

frontal cortex occupancy has to be released 

so that deeper-mind has conscious access.

eventually one channels oneself by these dynamic means 

that are readily available to them in this life time.

there are thousands of ways as means.

there is a basic integrity to being that needs to surface 

which is a form of surrender 

rather than contesting or willfulness.

most people settle for a lifestyle based upon conclusions 

which, in this case, do not help 

towards the cause of existence……

living in the get-by mode is very popular as success, 

dealing with fear-driven perspectives.

glimmer has to become a calling, 

as a drawnness, 

as an energetic honesty 

that is not mind driven.

life is a human maze of profound distraction 

that requires mind tools 

that are created by the self-impromptu 

with that wide-of-access within the self developed.

there are many levels of awareness on, 

all of the time. 

but access, in a conscious way, is limited 

by reality’s constant incestuous delving into answers 

that have no life-giving capacity.

one has to be in the stream of things 

to eventually know of the mountain 

that the snow-melt or the rain-fall came from. 

and then further, know of the sky circumstances 

that facilitated that specific rainfall or snow 

and then the nature of the sky circumstances 

that speak to and receive the weathering 

that is in constant thermal evocative flow.

the screen for viewing is always immersion.

that capacity is without restraint 

from a mindful-way of preoccupation.

most people become the wardrobe of their own making 

and then project their existence through that. 

it has a certain reality persuasion to it 

and is validated in a constant story-able way.

but that does not help with this process 

you are interested in explaining or expressing.

‘way’ has feel and is omnidirectional.

one has to challenge how think works, 

how feel expresses, 

how beingness manifest.

most people will go….

say what?

that one gets to an understanding

does not solicit actualization in the least.

actualization is the evolutionary process 

and one has to surrender into self-integrities 

that otherwise are not attended to 

by normal reality context . . .

so, why am I here (?),

is a false-lead.

how is my self-experiment evolving me

is loving the answer alive . . .