Self-guardianship * 3/5/14

Self-guardianship would appear to be a stance in defense, when it needs to be a creating source for self-fluidity. It needs to be as an affirmative response rather than a positional reaction. It presumes the artfulness of protection, based on an assumption for the need of protection as in “stay separate from” rather than “participate to secure”. And this former style of protection supposes a more profound worth and presumes separation as ownership, and therefore derives the self-storyline of exclusivity said privately to oneself. All of this as a false construction, both at the cultural and personal. Self-guardianship revers fear by a promotion of avoidance or omission. It is a series of negative affirmations that furthers more affirmations of separateness and isolation for all the parties involved. It is the muse of one’s mental manager, where that mindset becomes the guardian of oneself at the expense of being oneself. For some, it is a permanent role as a self identity and a groundedness, as well as a posttraumatic syndrome trait. But it is not worthy of identification as such because so many people harbor this as a principle as the state of the world we all live in around us. Self-guardianship can be driven by distrust since trust issues are a daily practice for all. Self-guardianship should be a version of self-love, done consciously as a way of being. Not all people have that realization in their life, early or if at all. Self-guardianship has lots of avoidances and omissions as an action scheme of function. For some, it is a way of carriage, a style of communication, a line of defense and a method to engagement. Truly a wardrobe of disguise that is rarely questioned for its essential sourcefulness. Yes, in many situations, it looks good in the moment dependent upon the context. But ongoing and thoroughly consuming, it becomes the stifles that cannot be addressed. It is role self assigned but needs to be in question as to who is running that ship that sails as the self of self-guardian . . .