The female orgasm conception * 2/19/14

I was not privileged to a female orgasm conception environment. There was not a haunt of one throughout my gestation either. Certainly there was the pronouncement of hormonal persuasions present. But no clear irrational spiritual manifestation beyond an emotional intimacy of primal stir reducible to sexual expression. Higher realms of accompaniment were not revealed by abandonment of being for the presence of spirit acknowledged. The feminine mystic did not come to me in that way or by any of those means. My androgyny was begotten from past lives of Fulbright and whizzical wisdom untampered, coming forward, finding me. Therefore, sexuality was never the script used to reach ecstatic states from within. Surely sexuality was a narrative directive and hormonally demanded. There was so much story beholding and rituals genderized into containment, but never the path of light in that way, to bloom, blossom and release me. For some, it may be so, others not very likely. For me to discover sexual expression as a means of spiritual celebration is many years of candid inner dialogue and the star burst matrix of other beings who bring an in-depth environments into play that help to manifest the light. Surely that spirit source is present in everyone but accessible by whatever means life offers in genuinely the call from deep within. ‘In love’ can be that process for some, seminal moments, for others, the eventual persuasion of a deep drawnness honestly pursued, can take one there. However, self-permission can gain this depth. To be drunk up with bliss beyond common sense surmise, to have visionary sight beyond boundary driven certitude in the eyes, to have empathy expand beyond an aura’s range to reach, to experience into the oneness of heart outside of time, that all is dancing as consciousness is a method of approach. This could have been anyone’s dream, the energetic feminine orgasmic environment of conception,  and it is so for a chosen few. For them, they have the indifferent persuasion of spirit coming through them as a self-means. As they then provide for others to pick up that scent and track that self source down as the deeper course of their lives, once orgasmic as aware, now going forward . . .