self-consciousness as the hustle 11/24/19

two of the major shortcomings of human consciousness 

are the concepts of time and space.

as concepts like time 

require an indulgence in occupancy 

which does not actually exist. 

it is only a technique 

that we have humanly invented 

which plays to the convenience 

of our mind usage 

as a method of self identification. 

of course, the concept of self 

is also a fabrication  

by its exclusionary nature of the usage 

as perception to enhance 

that which we claim as such, 

the notion of self as separate and distinctive 

by our observational methods. 

and in our occupancy as such, 

we further claim a concept of space 

which is dependent on time 

to be duly noted 

and to exist as referential 

for how we use our sensory nature 

to further the necessity and the substantive 

to account for our existence. 

neither of which actually function 

with the rest of the universe 

as deep concepts in essence 

but only serve as our means 

for the notion of understanding. 

yet our version of understanding 

does not permit us access 

to the deeper truths of existence 

or aliveness 

which we seem to be driven to comprehend 

even though our technique for doing understanding 

abides by false concepts of time and space 

in order to allow for our method of understanding 

to function in small-minded inadequacy  

as how and what we understand. 

hence we either have to give up on mind usage 

for the way we have it 

or come to a level of comprehension 

that does not avail us 

of a need for separation, or objectivity, 

or in-time perusal of existence. 

we are but our method of claim 

that excludes us from a consciousness 

of the isness of our existence 

and instead promotes a separateness of us 

from our essential process in a conscious way. 

we still are wanting to be self-conscious 

in the midst of our consciousness 

which seems to be the breakdown 

of our integral participation in the universe 

and its elemental means 

for the way we falsely identify 

and subsequently claim about ourselves 

and then referentially expand that claim 

as if understanding has given us a deeper access 

to the dynamics the universe in its existence.

we contend as audience

and expect the stage to come our way.

thoughts are only tickets to watch and learn.

we are but trench coats lined with pictures

and we have the display of self-consciousness 

as the hustle . . .