grit

where is grit in the gene pool?

what does that hardwire look like?

is it ever-present without being evident?

I need that toggle switch 

on my internal motherboard.

I don't want it to be self-reputational.

I want the feel 

without the necessity of usage. 

I could self-love from a gritty place within.

I could invent a discipline out of grit

and not tell another soul.

I could die to save another

knowing grit would bring me back,

either by a self miracle

or reborn into another life.

I'm not saying grit is destiny,

but I am saying grit 

as a form of self-love,

to know of myself as a higher force

than experience and circumstance provide.

it's having a fortitude of selflessness, 

beyond what a self could ever justify,

though not really tough 

but somehow spirit-justified . . .